Hey buddy.
You don't even know what this words mean to me. I am really sorry for what happened to you.
I can tell you for sure, I am not going to stop inspiring more and more people every day, that is my mission.
And one thing I want to say to you is, imagine what your son would want for you. What can you do to make him proud? I imagine he would want you to be really happy and go for the things you want. Do this for him. If you move away from pain, you could do big things in life. Use that. Go for what you want. You got this!