Hello there!

My name is Victoria. I am a 30-year-old Norwegian/Bulgarian girl, lived in Norway all of my life and grew up in Oslo in a multicultural place near the city center. Thus I do not feel Norwegian, but after spending 1,5 years in Sweden with my family - which I believed would be exactly the same as living in Norway - I soon discovered major cultural differences and therefore concluded with the fact that I do not feel Norwegian, but I am not particularly full of knowledge about anything else, either. That is a problem I have.

But! Here is a picture. Here I am!

(I recently told a user here that I never smile. That is not completely true. I do smile. On rare occasions).

I am sorry for the "up in face"-picture, but as I have no selfie-stick (a lie, I just don't know how to use it) or any friends that can take a profile picture of me, this will have to do.

By the way, it is not because I don't have any friends. I do. I have six friends. And they can take good pictures; It's just that I get so shy when someone else takes pictures of me. And because I never wear make-up, I never look perfect. Ugh, the life of the make-up-less-ones. That is also a lie. I do use make-up. But I am not comfortable with it. So then I look even worse than without. Because I think I look weird and then I do.

But I am happy with my looks, so it's not about that. (Ok, at least partly happy with my looks but this post was never about my looks I just don't like to put pictures of myself on the internet yet here I am doing exactly the opposite of what my mother told me when I was a child).

Yaaaay this is going great!

OK. I figured it was no point writing something here without being honest because I have to be if I am ever going to do anything. Here's the thing: I have some very strange demands to myself. If I am doing anything, it has to be honest and true, if not I won't do it. That may be because of low self-esteem and if it is - I am doing great by exposing that.

This is getting weirder and I guess that is a good sign. I feel like running away so then I continue.

My interests.

I love to write. Mostly because that is what I ended up doing. I always looked at myself being a famous author one day (I am not). It may be because of laziness. I don't want to dive into that right now.

But, I don't want to write just to write. It has to be some deeper meaning behind. So, I write poetry about aliens and sci-fi and cosmos, and evolution and humanity's future and stories where I try to put the drama away, fronting the ideals (like Star Trek you know) but still keeping it interesting. (Like Star Wars without all the wars). I write about meditation and spirituality and philosophy. Mysteries.
And up to now, it seems like I am the only one thinking that is interesting. Or, it can be that most of those stories are inside my head. I try to get them out. I really do. But the laziness.

I also enjoy mathematics and physics. I do not know so much about it, though. That's maybe the reason of why I enjoy it. But I do practice and I really wish to understand as much as possible and when the kids grow up, I want to take a degree. Hopefully in quantum physics because that is so awesomely cool, and because me and one of my six friends decided to take astronomy together in ca 20 years. She does not know that I am aiming for quantum physics, though. I am not going to tell her yet. I have many years still.

Other than that, I cannot do much else. I would also love to be really good in digital painting and watercoloring like the illustrubers on YouTube do it. I can draw a little but not much.

I am however very passionate about our future as a whole. I love searching for great causes, organizations doing good and making differences, how to be more ecological, stuff like that. I do carry a feeling of great shame and guilt for, you know, being human, hurting the planet, ecosystems, being Norwegian in a world where many people suffer. I don't know if that is a cultural thing I have picked up or if anyone else feels the same.

I love the idea of this page, I am learning as much as I can about cryptocurrency and to just understand it all, I think it is wonderful and absolutely our future. The more I learn about this, the better.

I also am really interested in vegan and vegetarian food. I wish I dared to be one.

What else is there to say? I could post another picture for you to see:

This is my Alien Woman. Tried out some watercolor.

As you see, I am not professional. I want to be professional in something.

But if you've come this far: Hello! And thank you for your time. I actually laughed a little, so I hope you did, too.

PS: I still don't know what to write about in my blog.

PS 2: I am not a depressed human being even though this post may appear me to be that. Right now I am just hungry.