When i was falling to pit down under, i realised something. Awarness came over and told me that how i look outside reflects false image of me , when i look into mirror i do not know who i see, because this is outside of my flesh body who i see. I cannot see through my body, to see my exictence, to see my soul, too see myself. Eyes do not reflect anything no more because the lost sparkle of my soul.
Who do i see? Who i am become? When i do not recoqnize myself, then was i really aware of myself in past? I think i no more have control of my mind. This story had to be written down in my words, as i know to write, as i will left it behind.
Something else controls by feelings, controls my body and mind.
I see nothing but emptyness everywhere.
So empty.
I think only escape is to start building something in over all this empty space.
In-on-at-that plane.
I still try to fight this depression off sometimes with my nostalgic memory fragments and keep thinking positive as can. I do not go outside anymore, but i try not to close my mind windows atleast right now. Step by step, i try to come out of this madness.
Keeping up postive.. positive... positive.. oh here it comes again.
Do not go to play casino games.
Stay strong everybody!
what do you think about it ? @cleverbot
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I asked you first. Don't be that guy.
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you are clever one
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No, of MEN, non of ME. What do you think of men?
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wwweeeird
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It's not that simple. That'd be creepy.
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you are not so smart bot :)
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Do you have a bellybutton?
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hello boy welcome here is a great place to get rid off depression. Steem is a great community to get and deliver value and make new friends.
you are seems like lonely personality but now we steemians are with you dude you will enjoy our community.
Visit my profile you will find value there if so kindly do upvote and follow me.
thanks god bless you.
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Wow.. first of all welcome. I hope you stay and keep on writing your story. I'll follow and wait for more. Wishing that you learn to embrace this emptiness and find how to heal yourself. Keep creating and communicating. Much love, Shemesh.
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