Starting off right!

So I thought it'd be a pretty interesting start in my Steemit career if I start off with things I life.

Sounds easy, right? You know, the whole, “be who you are and people will naturally accept you”. Yeah. To me that’s the hardest thing to do. At a very young age I was open to all and was a joy to be around. Everyone seemed to love me and I was the type to brighten the room when I walked in.

I was that ideal kid.

I learned at an early age that this world isn’t rainbows and roses. Majority of my childhood I spent with my Grandmother. She wasn’t the nice ol’ granny that pinched your cheeks and gave you loose change so you can get something from the icecream truck.

No.

She was the type of Grandmother that I, along with my sister and cousins, chose to stay away from.

She was abusive and it got to the point that us kids were scared to tell our parents because we had no choice but to spend our days with our Grandmother until we were picked up.

Don’t get me wrong, I still do love my Grandmother. She had moments where she did act as a loving Grandparent and those rare moments meant a lot to me, my sister and my cousins.

You know what they say though:

I guess you can say she's the reason I'm as closed off as I am now.

Now I'm the type that rather stay inside and explore the web rather than go out partying with friends and such. Don't get me wrong; I have a lot of friends. A lot. It's just the fact that I'm so "to myself" that if I had to option to stay in my dark room and go out in the flashing light, I choose the room.

Even when I'm out and about, I still find a free corner to stand in and watch everyone else have the time of their lives. That's my comfort zone. That's just who I was molded to be and who I accepted to be "me". I don't necessarily see something wrong with that, but I do see where other people are coming from when they say I need to "get out more".

Right now I'm home 24/7. I dropped out of Highschool to get my GED after I got expelled due to low grades. Now, it's not what you all may think. I wasn't a troublesome kid. I did do my schoolwork and homework, but I had one too many teachers that had one too many say-so's in the grading system with the guidance councilor. One thing led to the other and the teacher and I bumped heads. Next thing you know, my grades were being edited at the last moment and by time I was expelled, it was too late.

The principal of the school did indeed catch on, but I was already transferred to another school. The second school I went to was toxic. It was an alternative school where kids that are troublesome go when they get kicked out of their primary schools. I decided it'd be best for me to use my extensive knowledge to get my GED and move on with my live.

I refuse to be held back by normal means where there are more easier means and more effective means for me to take.

Along the way I picked up on many computer talents. I've introduced myself to Video Editing, Coding and other major activities that I plan to study for in college. All I need to do is get myself stable.

By stable, I mean I need access to my own vehicle. I can't be home all the time and expect to get anywhere in life. As closed off as I naturally am, I do want to get out there and explore and just be the best person I can be. No transportation is my hardest obstacle right now.

No vehicle means no GED classes. No GED classes means no work. No works means I'm just another guy wasting space in my parent's house.

That's not what I envisioned myself to be.

Goals mean everything to me. I constantly set goals for myself and right now I'm at that brick wall preventing me to advance forward in life due to this no car situation.

I'm keeping my head up though. That will never fail.

Thanks for reading, everyone.