Flash To Childhood Hallucinations With IT Movie.

Saw the new Killer Clown IT movie today!!! Helped take me back to horrorful childhood memories!! I grew up with a schizophrenic parent in the 80's and this movie takes place in the 80's! What a streak!!!! Remember the killer clown scare a year or so back!? Yippie!! This came with such great timing!!

When my brother and I were kids we were both freaked out by the out there scary stories my mom would tell in her mental illness state! We had childhood hallucinations! My brother saw toy animals come alive in the dark, we heard voices sometimes, my dad was away allot so I remember having hallucinations of his voice. My mom was frightened of everyone so she kept us away from our dad allot.

My mom wouldn't let us watch the IT show when we were children. She said it was too scary for us kids. She didn't know her own fears were more scary than this show! My brother and I would sneak into the living room at night and watch IT as children on the television. We all thought of horror as comedy cause we had been through so much and were mature for our age in ways.

We knew our mom was a worry wart yet at the same time she was right about all the messed up vibes she told us about and that we absorbed. Seeing the IT movie was awesome! Really brings me back to the place of tripping out in my head as a kid with fears and all this. My dad helped me by telling me a story about The Fear Jar. Seeing this movie was a sort of therapy. I want to express all the creeped ways I felt and perceptions I had as a child too! We used to watch Hellraiser and laugh at it.

So now I'm fairly inspired! Was thinking just the other day about writing the story of how my mom told us kids that there was something wrong in the fridge! Something living in the fridge! Like Weird Al! Loved Weird Al in the 80's too!! Still do! She told my brother and I that the milk...was....black! It expiry date read sometime last year! She was so spooked telling us this and how rotten the smell was. She said someone played a mean trick on her cause they want to scare the family. The church is evil and doctors are evil and they have come to control our minds. True really.