Past Lives

On this occasion I want to tell a little about my past which is always belittled by the people around.
Many things I learned when you treated me all the time, I became a better man, but there was also a negative thing because of that, until my parents scolded me.
Your daily mock It affects my life.
Remember . When you underestimate me, when you make fun of me, it hurt me, but because of you guys, I'm not easy to give up, become a stronger person to be a more patient person ,without knowing the limit. Life is colorful, and that color completes my days, this is the past, but I will never forget because this is a powerful energy for me to rise up against this spiraling life and at that moment there is nothing better than a mother.
this is my photo with my mom.

I have never felt like a mother, but the kindness of a mother is priceless. Only the mother is the outpouring of my heart, when you hate me. The best friend for me, nothing better than a mother, I say this because I feel the mother is the angel of my life, but I do not understand, maybe out there, a lot of people who hate his mother.
Although you do not like me, there are still people who love me in addition to the love of a mother.
And this is the person who loves me besides my mother.
It's really difficult for me to do anything, but I'm so grateful, there are still people who love me, yes you three, thanks for you guys, I can not repay your kindness, forgive me yes if I ignore when you send inbox to me, I do not mean cool, because your inbox coincides when I'm busy, really, I want to meet the three of you, want to nostalgia, feel when we still have no lovers, while playing together, go together, I miss you friends.
When I know that I get the badest value in my school I feel really bad, Unexpectedly, maybe because of my downturn and I'm thinking about this, I'm not focused on learning. Yes this is indeed a thing that should not happen again, because you guys, I so can punish my parents at that time. Either spirit from whom, I rise because of this downturn, I rise because I am sure, I should not give up just because you guys mine, whether I can be hidayah. I was rarely out of the house, studying, learning that I did, even though I did not understand. Not only meet the physical needs alone, I also meet my spiritual needs, my third night I try to get up and perform sunnah prayers, if the obligatory prayer is indeed a duty. Once again thank you guys for making my life change better.
As in the proverb: raft first, swim pool later, get sick first, have fun later.
This proverb reminded me of this incident, perhaps after my many trials of my friends, with ridicule, treatment, but it turns out the god to grant my prayer. There used to be a person who told me, either I forget who, he said. The prayers of persecuted people are granted. And indeed my prayers are all granted, I do not pray for them to fall from adversity, but I pray for my happiness and my family, it's a pity for me, maybe I'm among those who are persecuted at that time, let that pass is gone, and this is a lesson for me .
Two years more over, It's so fast and I'm here finding my real self. Far from them, I still feel free, because I have not had time to apologize to them, even though they should be apologizing, but for me I also need to. I know this is my new life, which is required to live independently, without any dependence, this is my wish, and god grant it at that time. I feel I find my identity here, I can wear my clothes, no one organize, or make fun of me anymore, eat as I like without anyone scolding. Not that I'm here freely, I also have to obey the rules of both my parents and my lover. But I am relieved far from them, those who are so evil to me. And I'm here grateful to be able to find new friends, which is far from the nature of my friend first. Perhaps because it is more mature,yes indeed they all now also enjoy the identity of each of them out there. I will not forget you guys. You are also the person who inspired me to this day. Although I do not know what will become of me anymore, the fear is always in my mind, but this heart disease I want to throw away.
This is my past that I can never forget.
Tell me your past.