I'm 23 years old, my husband also 23. We wildly wanted children, but neither of which did not work, I was diagnosed with infertility, I was treated for 1.5 years and then a miracle happened, I'm pregnant! at what we will have twins! everything went well, according to the standard, the tone, hospitals, clinics .... on the 26th week I get to the hospital, according to the testimony, they put me a pessary (ring), since the neck does not stand the load, it seems all right, I come home. I was discharged on the 14th of the month and on the 14th I am already in the birth, at the 27th week of pregnancy I started to have labor, then running around me, operating room, cesarean, the girls do not cry, they do not breathe, resuscitation.
On the 14th I gave birth to two small premature princesses 790 and 930 grams, Varvara and Taisia. Varya surrendered first on March 25, then Tasia surrendered on April 4. two angels. At age 23, my husband and I buried 2 children! in the first year of marriage! Doctors yell after the caesarean at least a year break, but I will not wait, after half a year we'll start all over again, tests, hospitals, doctors ... Meanwhile, the whole apartment is filled up with children's things, toys, two cribs ... everything was bought twice ... Many say: time heals, everything goes away, you are giving up, young ones ... .. It's all bullshit, time does not erase the memory, and when I come to the family cemetery, I will always see two small crosses and two angels nearby ...
So sorry for you Angela nothing can be said to help you and your husband to get over your loss. Everybody have to loose someone very close one day or later and there is nothing that can prepare us for the pain we feel. Try to build a good life routine to help you not going in the wrong way while you feel so bad. Do what help you to feel better on the long term (sport, meditation, spend time with beloved person...) and avoid all short term solutions (drugs, alcohol,gamble..).
Hope you will find some good support on steemit and welcome.
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Thank you! I really appreciate your support.
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So sorry for your loss @angela.lee There's no words that can comfort you but I'll say my prayer. I can't imagine the tremendous loss. Keep the faith!
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So sorry about your experience :( I cannot have children either and it has been hard to accept. Be strong is all we can do. Sending a big hug ❤️
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Be strong! God is merciful.
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i am truly sorry, please accept my sympathy your story is a touching one...if i may ask are you a Christian?
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That is heart breaking story, keep your head up and push forward after all there is light at the end of every tunnel.
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So sorry for your loss. Welcome to Steemit. Sounds like you have a lot to offer and maybe help someone else who is need of healing.
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Warm welcome to steem community and also follow you hope for good Thanks
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Thanks for sharing your story <3 All the best for you!!
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Am so sorry for your loss, i can't imagine the pain you are feeling inside but i know God will comfort you.
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I'm so sorry for the loss of your beautiful babies. I can't even imagine the pain and grief. No matter what age you are, the grieving process is hard and takes many many years before you reach any normalcy. You are entitled to feel this way. Why should you cover your real emotions? To make other people feel better? No, you're suffering and you need to process this. You will never forget your babies. This honours the short lives they had. I wish you peace.
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welcome to steemit @angela.lee, best regards..
hopefully you feel at home here. 😊
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Thanks for sharing @angela.lee. It must be really hard for you. I am sorry for your lost. Wish you to have healthy kids in next trial.
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I really appreciate you sharing with us @angela.lee. It must have been very very hard for you to share your story. So sorry for your loss. Welcome to the Steemit community. Wish you have healthy kids on the next time you try. Thank you once again and stay strong.
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My heart goes out to you two! Many prayers.
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I am so very sorry for your loss momma. I know there isn't much anyone can say to help make you feel any better but if you ever need anything always feel free to reach out <3 bless those beautiful angels you have watching down on you <3
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I'm very sorry. It's a hard time ahead of you, but do not lose hope. I will pray for you.
The Lord upholds all who fall,
And raises up all who are bowed down. Psalm 145, 14
Casting all your care upon Him, for He cares for you. I Peter 5, 7
Now this is the confidence that we have in Him, that if we ask anything according to His will, He hears us. And if we know that He hears us, whatever we ask, we know that we have the petitions that we have asked of Him. I John 5, 14-17
But I am poor and needy;
Yet the Lord thinks upon me.
You are my help and my deliverer;
Do not delay, O my God. Psalm 40, 17
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This is heartbreaking. I'm so sorry for your loss. As a father myself, I can't imagine the pain of losing one child, let alone two. May the gods shine a light on all your future Little Ones
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Comparto su sentir...que pena perder dos hijos...
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Don't you think you should adopt to avoid the risk of another two babies dying?
Sorry to be honest but there are countless children in need and I am legitimately curious as to why you would want to potentially see more babies die because you just "HAVE" to pro-create.
The world is in a sad state.
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feeling so sorry about the loss you face...no one can imagine the pain of loosing the dearest ones of your...i could not be able to convey what i am feeling...just have trust on God he loves you...may God bless you dear...
and a warm welcome to steemit community with a tight hug...:)
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Feel sorry for your loss :( and your story is really heart breaking .. no one can explain the pain and grief you have right now. Anyways be positive everything will be fine .. theres a God sees what your heart and pain right now and in time you will be heal ;)
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I know your pain. I wish I could say it goes away or gets better but that is not so or at least for us. Some days are easier than others but no day is easy. No-one should ever have to lose a child not alone 2.
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OMG I'm so sorry for your loss
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I wish you luck and I hope you will soon get pregnant but try to ask more doctors about those 6 month. My doctor was also pretty serious about a year long pause after cesarian.
Stay strong. Time doesnt heal but baby will..
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