This week has been one tough mudder since I had stopped ingesting Kratom cold turkey and had no idea that withdrawal symptoms could be so harsh. Outcomes including but not limited to cold sweats, depression, anxiety, massive insomnia, nausea, worry, doubt, fear, frequent urination, lethargy, increased pulse and blood pressure. The insomnia was the worst, along with having zero energy to do anything. Laying in bed from 9pm until 6am not being able to sleep because my body felt like it was cranked and wound tightly like a coil coincided consistently with being extremely fatigued. Thankfully I began reading this blog and this site about detoxing off Kratom.
It's been six days since I felt an immediate overbearing disgust with ingesting this plant daily to give me energy, elevate mood and reduce body pains. Several weeks ago I began seeing that I was addicted to this plant because I found myself always thinking about when I was going to take the next serving, and if I had enough. Several daily checks of remaining amounts continued for weeks until I thought "oh boy I have to get off this stuff." Many people credit Kratom with helping them repair the abuse of other substances, myself included (I may or may not go into these stories some day). I should have researched the correct way of quitting Kratom, which is to taper off in order to reduce the backlash. Maybe this way I did it was to show me how much my body was dependent on it. Kratom is a serious plant, and I definitely recommend it's correct use, but also DEFINITELY recommend you research how addictive it is. Read the personal stories on that first blog link I posted. Some people are able to take it only a few times per week, and give the body time to clear it out before building up a resistance/addiction. Many people have used it to get off of opiate drugs. I used it to clear out of harms way of a period of my life that crept up suddenly on me so I credit it helping me in that respect. Please take note about Kratom leaf and it's power.
The fact that I am off grid and haven't had AC all summer in a very hot humid part of the earth did NOT help me feel any better. Add some more cat pee on my bed sheets and having my birthday? Interesting times indeed. I want to thank my family for being there so I could call/text them updates and also my neighbor for bringing over a lemon cake.