I will not pretend to know your pain. As individuals we process things differently and feel pain quite differently. But pain is still the shared Human Experience. It shakes us all. It makes us want to leave here. It makes it impossible to see any of the good that we do or bring. the fact of the matter is... Even when we are in the most pain, we can still be the brightest thing someone's day. Even when we can only see ourselves as a burden, the next person is only thinking of how grateful they are to simply have us. I hope the next time you feel this way... You are reminded of how many people love you just for being you, regardless of what you're going through. I pray that you get a break from misery and that it doesn't come soley in the form of death. From one chronic pain sufferer to another. Please know my thoughts are with you. Thank you for sharing your story and your beautiful words

PS. It is none of my business how you heal yourself. After losing two people to cancer... I would hope that you were able to find natural remedies. Rick Sinpson Oil has proven healing properties at a cellular level. My apologies if that sounds intrusive