why sex is the best and worst thing to ever happen to me

this is a 100% true story

It all started at the beginning of my junior year in Highschool. Before then, i had only kissed one girl. I never had problems making conversation, or expressing myself around women, but i just could never finish the deal. I had only kissed one girl up until turning 17. Let's fast forward to the good part, end of Junior year.

I met an insanely hot girl through instagram and it turned out that she went to my highschool, and we hit it off the first time we met. Last day of school, she invites me to a party, but i turned her down to hang with the boys. She could wait, i'm a loyal guy and when i make plans, i stick to them. That night we had an NBA playoff game to drink to. So the game finishes, and shes back at her house with her friends in her hot tub, its 11 PM and she invites me over. im thinking "really? i mean are your parents going to let me in this late?" (keep in mind this is my first time going to her house). She says yes, and my boys and i are on the way, because she had friends, and no one gets left behind.

The night goes on and her and i barely spoke, but we'd look at each other when no one else was looking, only for a second. my friends left, as did hers, and then she and i are in their alone. Not even 30 seconds after the last of the group is gone, she pushes me into the corner of the tub and straddles me, and starts making out with me. I just met this girl, and she's ontop of me. she starts jerking me off and i'm in heaven, i had finally experienced something new. After that we spent the rest of the night, until the sun came up on her patio in each other's arms, just talking about life. i was excited to be with this girl.

1 year of an on and off relationship later, i realized i gave everything i had to offer and more to the shittiest person on earth. I took this girl shopping all the time, we went out to dinner frequently, and i even took us on a week long cruise to the carribean for spring break. I don't blame her for my illogical spending and gift showers, i blame sex. i wanted this girl no matter what she did to me, because the sex we had was incredible. I can say to this day, i still want her but i know its not good for me. This is why sex might be the worst thing that was ever happened to me, but let me tell you why its the best.

After being about a year and a half removed from the relationship, i can say i'm glad i had it because the amount of wisdom and experience gained has opened my eyes to the bigger picture. When we broke-up, she immediately was with a new guy, and all i wanted in life was to have her back. And we had gone through this cycle 7 or 8 times. this time i wanted it to be different, i decided i was going to make millions of dollars, own a mansion and a lamborghini, and retire by 30 all in spite of her. I wanted to be successful so bad just so i could rub it in her face, and then use it as means to win her back.

as the wounds healed i realized i didn't want to be that guy. I didn't want to be the arrogant asshole that has nice things and shoves it in people's faces. But the drive to be successful stayed. around the middle of my freshman year i finally figured out how i was going to make my money. Bingo, the stock market. I watched hundreds of hours of study tips and lessons, and when i finally thought i had it all figured out, i blew up my account in less than 3 months. i lost everything i had worked for in the summer. I was upset for a few days, but it made the drive to succeed even stronger. The fire inside me burned even brighter, and when the end of my freshman year came, i went right back to my summer job and worked 40-50 hour weeks, and spent the rest of the time off reading books authored my millionaires, watching succesful people's strategies on youtube, and just plain old investing in knowledge.

By this time my mindset had changed again, and i had decided that i wasn't going to allow any women get in the way of my success, because i had a summer fling which i ended shortly when i noticed the drive to become wealthy start slipping. Besides, i already had fucked my satanic ex-girlfriend enough durring the relationship, i knew what it was like. Its something i enjoy, but its the short race, and i want to win the long race. nothing was going to stop me this time.

I met a few friends along the way, one of which who started a flourishing shopify store. and another who became a millionaire trading stock options. They both took me under their wing in their professions but sadly it hasn't worked for me. By this time i wanted success as bad as i wanted to breathe, it seemed like everyone around me was taking off, and yet i wasn't. why not me? i've been working my ass off! i deserve something right? WRONG! In life, there are no hand outs, and by now i was ready to try anything to make the money i've been chasing for so long. A friend of mine mentioned bitcoin, and when he mentioned it a few months back the first time, i blew it off. I thought to myself "its a bubble" just like everybody else.

That same friend brings it up again, the day i shut down my failing shopify store. I had coinbase downloaded on my phone already, but i rarely checked it. I hadn't checked it since bitcoin was around 700$, and that day when i saw 2800$ my jaw dropped. I thought about the opportunity i had missed, how if i invested everything i had when he brought up bitcoin the first time, i would've been well on my way. seeing bitcoins phenomenal gains left me wondering what else was out there, and what was next.

On the timeline, we're approaching about a month before the present day. I have spent more hours researching blockchain, cryptocurrency, and the projects these coins are in, than i have studying for tests, and exams in my entire life. I've never been more interested in anything, and the technology that is being developed is just incredible.

Present day now, and for the first time in over a year, i feel like i have found the perfect niche for my drive to succeed. Everyone in the cryptocommunity and even the steemit community for that matter wants success. We all believe that we're on the verge of something great, and i couldn't be more proud to be apart of it. I completely support this entire movement, and i owe it all to being knocked to my knees. I can tell you all for a fact, that if my relationship didn't end as bad as it did, i would not have cared how much money, or how successful i ended up being. I'm as excited for the future as all of you, and while Cryptocurrency is not a freeride to wealth, i have done my research, and i have all my life savings in one coin right now, which i will disclose to the steemit community if you enjoyed this brief chapter of my life.