Thank you @slothlete, I'm trying to handle with my fears and I'm looking forward for getting more light, in case it will help me cope with all the pointless fears better. The darkness is not a friend of human mind.

Some say life is what we make our life to be, but it'd be easy if I could even have power over myself!

Keep on growing up and we'll either run from the crazy feelings OR become more crazy without noticing it.