Riding the dragon aka random thoughts

I always had weight issues. Never had much problem losing it and definitely NEVER had issues gaining it. No … the main problem was keeping it more or less steady.

My ups and downs started after puberty hit. Some people may not understand the hormonal beast but I had a close encounter with it so I’m a firm believer. I call it “riding the dragon”. That is exactly how it feels. Ups, downs, wind changes, storms, etc. To me it is like I’m split into two different people. Like there is a rational being somewhere inside me, but it is just simply swamped under all this emotion that comes right out of nothing. And then the dragon makes a stop, I climb down and all is swell and dandy again. The world is clear and my thoughts sane.

I had treatment for some time. Exactly 3 years. It did not help. What it did was make the beast even larger and the ride even stronger. So I just stopped. After changing 3 different treatments I had enough. Instead I accepted the beast as my own pet dragon, studied it and tried milking the hormonal ups and downs in my advantage.

Coming back to the start … keeping my weight in check helped. So does regular exercise. Now some people are natural when it comes to movement, even a bit hyper. Not me of course. :) No … I like my world to be slow and at a steady paste. My favorite saying is: if it is not in the head it’s got to be in the legs. Hyper people make me a bit … jumpy and nervous. I’m a heavy organizer. Half of the work is done in my head and I save a lot on the leg work. So how does a “lazy” person exercise? The answer was quite simple. You just pay someone to be motivated for you. If I was a bit better at sonnets I would write one to my trainer. But then again I wish him a very active sex life each time I’m slowly dying from exhaustion. And the “comic” bellow should compensate in some way or another.

All the artwork is my own. Sure, it’s only doodles but I would still appreciate if you didn’t use them without my permission.