Hey Steemians! Crazy that January is already over!

Is it just me or does it seem that every year flies by a little faster than the year before? The holidays roll around we get excited start decorating the house, the parties and family get togethers. Then it comes it goes we put all that stuff back into the attic and BOOM seems like we are doing it all over again and only a feels like a few weeks passed.

The other day I was thinking about the day my daughter was born and that seems like it was just yesterday but we just celebrated her 6th birthday. In all this speed of life though the important things are the memories that we create. The small stuff, the friendships we form and that we stay joyful even when it seems there isn't anything to be joyful about.

I look back on life and I have made my mistakes things that I am ashamed of, but I don't live back there I live in the present. And we should all try to remember that, sure there will be those of you that read this that downvote it for whatever reason, they just downvote and never say anything, no profile filled out, no steem power, not one blog post and a reputation of 25 the starter amount but come downvote my posts for whatever reason.

Sorry got a little side tracked there from the point I was making. We read online that you need to create good content and add value to this or to that and that is exactly how we should live our lives.

There are universal laws, some may refer to this as karma. You get what you give. So if you put out good vibes, and positive energy that is what you get back in return. The more generous you are the more you'll have right. These are laws just like any law that govern man except they are the universe's law. It can't be broken or stopped.

I can't understand why I felt prompted to write a post like this that is entirely different from all of my other posts. In my other writings I tell stories or the new crypto that I found and really support and why or ways to make a bit of extra money online and so forth. This is not like my normal work but I feel pushed to put pen to paper and let it roll so that's what I am doing.

So back to my points that I have been married, had run 2 successful businesses, but got tangled up in opiate addiction due to an injury that I suffered, and ended up screwing up my entire life. Lost my wife, my sons,my business, my home, my toys, and money! That only drove me into a deeper tailspin to the point of suicide!

I really tried to overdose and die Christmas Eve 2008! Fortunately I woke up face down in a puddle of my vomit instead of being on my back where I would have drowned in it instead. It was then at my rock bottom that I knew I had to get control of my life back. I had become something completely different.

I went and stole some merchandise from Walmart got caught and went to jail for 1-2 was the sentence I could have got out on parole after 11 months but I wasn't ready to be out yet. I felt less than 1 year was not long enough to get my life back together. So I maxed the case out, meaning I stayed all the way to the end of the sentence term.

And I was just sitting here the other day thinking about how fast all of this has gone past me. How I was able to be spared and others aren't that lucky. Kobe Bryant was killed in a helicopter crash two days ago along with his little daughter, his first coach two of his other friends and the pilot. Kobe was working on amazing things that would have helped tons of kids to realize that you need to dream big and go after that goal! That anything you want you CAN GET if you work hard enough!

There isn't anything we can't accomplish, nothing that is out of reach or unobtainable if we put our freaking minds to it. That we now try to make excuses for everything...well I am just an addict. To that I say bullshit the truth is you either do the drugs or you don't. You either dump the alcohol down your throat or you don't! This oohhh poor me I am just an addict is a cop out a way for us to justify garbage behavior and have excuses for never putting our big boy and big girl pants on and take control of our lives!!

I am still not where I want to be but I thank God I am not where I was. Every day I try to be better than the day before. I try to focus on my words and how I treat people, I can be a bit abrasive at times but it's never in a mean way I just try to get people to realize that there is much more to this life. And more importantly the afterlife. People do drugs and drink because they are unhappy. That's what it boils down to. If you talk to addicts and finally get down to the base issue it is unhappiness for one reason or another.

Maybe lack of money or not content in their marriage, or not satisfied with what they're accomplishing in life or their parents didn't love them enough whatever it is that is the root!

When I had my injury and got addicted to opiates myself the biggest reason I didn't stop is running two businesses, a marriage, and two kids at 25 years old is stressful. It's extremely stressful and the wife was always on me so that was my escape. I forgot about all that stuff when I was high. Once I sobered up and got my head screwed back on the correct way it was a bit clearer why I did what I did.

This post is probably going to strike a nerve or two with some people but I am not trying to be disrespectful to anyone. I am talking from experience. I have reallly lived everything I have talked about in the post. Again this is very different than anything else I write someone somewhere is going to see this and it is going to be the message they need at that moment. If that person is not you great you don't know the struggle and that is awesome but please don't go downvoting this post just because you have a different opinion than I stated in the post.

For the person that does need it just know there are people who love you, some are closer than you realize right now, and God loves you no matter what you have dine in your life and so long as there is breath in your lungs it is not too late for forgiveness. There are also many rehabs around if you do a quick Google search for your area you'll get a long list of rehabilitation centers and support groups such as N.A. and A.A. that happen every day of the week.

Always remember to Live with integrity, Love wholeheartedly, and Laugh often!! Good day, good afternoon, good night, depending on where you are in the world when you're reading this!! Fire me some feedback what are your thoughts? Like what you read then smash that follow button! Hate what you read ok ciao no skin off my nose!!