It's Time I Stopped Focusing Externally... Again...

It's been a long time since I to started developing myself again. It's been a long while since I was truly excited about something, so hopeful and bright... but it all sort of faded away. I was stagnant and without direction before I really started to run into problems. It was like a weird semi-depressive state where nothing really matters and you have nothing else to do but play videos games or watch youtube all day. In a sense, I was hoping for salvation to happen to me rather than creating it myself. I forgot to focus on myself. It's like all the years I've studied metaphysics and other practices have been completely forgotten and wasted, until now at least. I am slowly getting back on my feet.

The biggest issue that I've ran into during these stagnant times is money. The funds I've saved up from my past work dwindled away quicker than I could have ever imagined. In retrospect, it's really important to keep a lookout on your finances or it can really get out of hand. Realizing more and more about my impending financial crisis, I knew I needed a source of income. I hated doing any of the typical slave like jobs to the bone so I tried doing various jobs and setting up businesses online instead but I never had enough drive to pursue them all the way through. Eventually, this lead to a point where I was really starting to get into trouble with money. It's never until the last moment that you realize that you should put a bit more focus into it.

It's been several months since this crisis has started but it's slowly being resolved. It's still quite a distance from being completely averted though. I suppose at this point I have been trying just about anything online to make money. Following guides for internet marketing, dropshipping and so on. Anything cryptocurrency related have been the most successful so far, however. This is why I'm here posting on steemit rather than on reddit or another popular social media platform haha :). I've really grateful that such cryptocurrencies even exist as I would be a lost otherwise. It shows that times are changing, and for the better. I know I'll get pass this wall eventually and when I do, the other side will be absolutely beautiful.

All of this is besides the point, however. As I continue to slowly resolve this situation, I realize how hard I've been making things for myself. As I mentioned earlier it's as if I completely forgotten about EVERY single metaphysical principle since I've learned about them and awakened from the matrix created by a corrupt system around 5 years ago. I've learned that you have to put in effort to get what you want more than ever now, positive thinking just isn't enough if you're doing and changing absolutely nothing, but I've also left behind all the important stuff that kept me happy, or at least neutral, regardless of the situation. The crisis made my mind go blank and I just couldn't focus on anything else other than making money and that has got me completely worn out mentally and emotionally.

In summary, do what you can to live comfortably but don't lose focus on yourself and what truly matters to you. Don't do what I did. Always remember to keep yourself grounded when a negative situation occurs and reward yourself for positive ones, whatever that may be. Don't go overboard with the rewards, especially depending on the type of reward, moderation is key for almost every situation. You have to do all the things you can to keep yourself healthy and happy regardless of the situation. This includes exercising, eating properly, meditating and other tools that can really help you. Balance is truly the key and I'm realizing this more and more, hence one of the reasons for my profile pic :). You must never forget about why you're doing the things you do and that it's all meant for the things and people you love. It is for your spiritual and emotional gratification as well as for others. If you lose sight of this, then what's the point of living at all? Not to mention doing all of this will actually help you in productivity and hence resolve the crisis even faster.

I may be preaching to the choir here but, regardless, I just thought that any reading this should know. If any of you have ever been in a situation like this, or even worse like full on depression, I feel you and I will you all the best :). When things are all settled, I look to bringing more light to this world and helping to create the utopia that we all deserve. A Heaven on Earth... it all begins with us...

By the way I have a previous post where I mentioned an audiobook called "Whisperings of the Dragon: Shamanic Practices to Awaken Your Primal Power" by Lujan Matus. It's been really helping lately to keep a neutral state of mind and stop the endless chatter of my emotionally unsatisfied internal dialogue. It's free if you get the audiobook from Audible.com, 30 day trial. I'm not advertising for personal gain here as there's no affiliate link lol :)!