Dieing of Cancer but Being Loved by a True SoulmatesteemCreated with Sketch.

in life •  7 years ago  (edited)

I am not sure how many posts I will be able to write here but I truly thank all my Steemit friends for listening. Be safe and remember

Live......Love......Laugh

In 2011 I was diagnosed with cancer and a unknown body inflammation and need to be on prednisone just to be able to move. I was told that back then that I would start to go downhill after five years. Sure enough it happened. I now have so many side effects from pills like kidney issues, broken teeth and too many too mention. Luckily I have the best girl in the world. I am so lucky. she said lets go to mexico to live and here I am in Playa Del Carmen. I can only say I fight the fight as my wife gives me the strength. I love you Babyloooo and I hope I get some more time to be with you. My illness is not curable so we go day to day. I call my girl my Babylooo. She is my strength my armour and my soulmate.

A millions years could swallow my soul into oblivion
And it would have all been worth it since I had you in my life
Even if for a blink of an eye compared to eternity.
Where does one grasp that in time and space we are a mere miniscule
To what happens all around us but to me you are it.
I have no idea how long I have on this earth but am so grateful for us.
I do not want to be forgotten as that is my greatest fear
But quite honestly as long as I am not forgotten by you is all that matters.

They say a beautiful women is in her looks but to me what I type now is what makes you my beautiful babyloooo.

The beauty of what I see in you
Is not in the clothes that you wear
Or the figure that you carry
Or the way you comb your hair
The beauty of you is seen from a special part
It is seen from your eyes
Because that is the doorway to your heart
The place where true love resides and burns
I have the key to open your heart
Because the true beauty in you
Is reflected in your soul.
I am so angry at what life has given me in regards to health
But also so thankful for what he has given me in you
I cannot even fathom a day going by with feeling your lips on mine
And that smile that you give me so many times a day
You changed my world with a blink of an eye
That is something that I cannot deny
You put my soul from worst to best
You even pushed me to the best that I can be
I wonder if really you are an angel sent from above
When I'm with you I will not cry even a single a tear
Every time I wake up and feel your touch you have chased away all of my fear
You have given me a life that I could live worthwhile
Now I have found what I am looking for and Its you and your love and nothing more.
I will never be able to speak on this paper just how lucky I am or how much I love you
Words are mere words compared to feelings and hope in the end
That I have shown you enough to know before time as miniscule as it is swallows me whole
I am not sure if you understand what I am saying but this is how I feel

Your kids are an added bonus that I cannot believe I was lucky enough to have in my life and how much I feel towards them and just hope that I have played a part in their life even in such a short time….
When times blinks and its over I only ask that God let you be beside me kissing me while I open that door with that special key one more time…….I hope he and you let me reside right there in your soul to feel that fire for eternity……..

Please do all you ever wanted to do, what we wanted to do. be happy Baby and realize I am close no matter what

Love always

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One of the most beautiful and moving things I've ever read.

I thank you from my heart me friend. Lynn enjoys your chats alot. I thank you for also helping her smile and laughing. you are a true gentleman.

I'm glad I get to bring a little levity into your lives. :) Have a great day!

This is a beautiful and moving tribute to Lynn, Brian - You can't measure moments of true love simply because it is forever

Thank you my friend so much.

Oh to love and be loved...the most beautiful thing on earth...this brought tears to my eyes

I was telling your beautiful wife yesterday, how happy I am to be able glimpse into yalls life through your posts. It plays as a reminder to always live life to its fullest, and not just live it but enjoy it... to love like its the last time. If nothing else, one thing is for sure, your love for each other is truly inspiring and so obvious. I know your days are hard and no, theres not one thing that is fair about what yall have to go through but trust that you will always be in the heart of so many people and I pray for both of you, for strength, peace and guidance. Much love! <3

Thank you so much. The writing is harder as I am having trouble at times concentrating now. Thank you all for being My loves friend on Steemit. She talks about you all. :)

Its truly my pleasure... Shes a wonderful person, as are you!

How can I even respond to this?

You said

Words are mere words

...but yours never are!

I am not sure if you understand what I am saying but this is how I feel

I do. All of it. Because I feel the exact same way. xo

Please do all you ever wanted to do, what we wanted to do. be happy Baby and realize I am close no matter what

Right now, I can't even think about a future without you, without feeling my heart breaking even more. I have to believe that there will come a time, where my future without you will be bearable, but right now is not that time. When the time comes however, I will continue to live, and I'll do it with a smile on my face, because I do believe you will be near by, and I'll have all of our amazing memories to keep me going.

I love you, more than my words can say.

How do I respond to this comment. I cannot at the moment my love

You don't have to baby! :)

No words could say more than you have here in this post so I’ll not try. I will resteem it though.

Thank you so much my friend.

I think you chose the best platform to express your love to your Babyloo @lynncoyle1. This will never be erased here and everyone will see it. I know that we have to be careful on the words we put here because of the immutability of the blockchain. But stories of love and kindness should be here! :)

Thank you and I read your poem. very beautiful

That brought tears to My eyes so sweet. When you meet true love its There to stay enjoy every mini moment because you never know even When your not sick

so true and Thank you so much

A beautiful tribute to love!

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