There is not much physical I can do from half a world away though I wish I could help. It is easy for my to say the pain is short lived but it is not that easy in reality because of the shear hopelessness that it brings with it. The physical pain will pass but it feel as though it never will. The pain doesn’t feel good, it is not weakness leaving your body. It is pain and all the anxiety, fear and endlessness it brings. It is ok and natural to feel like you do right now. It is good that you have an understanding of its impacts on your emotional state. This pain will subside in time, just try your hardest to not let this pain inflame any emotional wounds. Easier said than done.