Today my ears just RANG like a MoFo and it just worries me. My body is really tanking I must say and I am not really surprised by it. In fact I believe that I am just overdue, I had been a dialysis patient for nineteen years already and it was my anniversary last December 1st but I didn't even mentioned it to anyone because for one thing it is not a cause for a celebration but the opposite.
I am just maybe fortunate enough to control the damage that had been done already by the long-standing imbalances in my body that made my appearance like so you see in my photos here.
Actually I do look terrible in person, it is just my photos have some level of effects in it like colors, lighting, skin lightening, and all that smoothing and beautification effects by my smartphone but really I am just uninteresting to look at in person.
But I just managed to control the damages done by my being a chronic dialysis patient with complications. So with all that I am still thankful that at least I managed to improve my quality of life relatively thanks to God firstly and secondly from the friends that selflessly always at my back to support me.
Now I am just experiencing unusual things now in my body maybe partly to my own undoing and probably mismanagement. But I am just constantly trying ways and means to alleviate the things that bothers me from within.
And it just maybe having a backlash on me hence these things that are popping-up like my renegade blood pressure issues and now this terrible tinnitus that is having a flare-up on me right now.
I am praying that soon this will also come to pass because having a tinnitus is something but a flare-up is really debilitating. I am trying to just ignore it but it is worrisome and scaring me already.
This could very well be coming from my brain, a symptom of something worse and God forbid if I will die slowly but if it is his will already I just want to graduate fast or in my sleep.
