You can't just believe what my life is right now because it is always the same over and over as if I am just passing time because it is truly what is happening. The difference was at least I am not depressed because of cryptocurrency for one reason as it makes me want to see the light of another day, week, and months. But dealing with an abnormal life is what stresses me out for the reason that I cannot anymore travel among other things. I've been waiting to tot he mountains up north, spend some time in some of the tourist spots in those mountainous regions because of the scenery and of course the food. Of course I also want to visit other tourist spots in my own country and experience how is it like to enjoy being there and trying local cuisine, foods that I can never try here from my town. But I am just too tired, too weak, too disabled to do what I want to happen and I am basically cursed in that regard because I never imagined to live like this with a pitiful situation with the condition of my appearance and body. So all that I can do is to continue the next best thing which is to keep collecting cryptocurrency so that I can be more prepared for my bleak future.
Yes, my future is not very good-looking because once that I lose my parents it will be a whole new ball game for me. I can either live in a more precarious situation mentally and physically or to receive a better care from those that are willing to take me in. But rest assured I will not be a financial burden already, I will be for sure an asset that no one wants to ignore but to get to hold with because of my digital assets. That is why I am seemingly looking like a garbage but in reality I am an asset on two legs because of the net worth which cryptocurrencies had given me. Not only I am an asset but an appreciating asset because of Bitcoin. Had it not been for Bitcoin, I am really done for many years ago already because with this kind of medical situation that I have where money is easily burned even if most of my medical needs are secured by my current government health insurance. In fact, I cannot still afford most of my supplements but I am thankful that at least I am not spending more to some of the medicines that I might need but are replaced by my controlled diet and vitamin which is acting like a perfect drug for some of my health issues and it does saved me from a lot of heavy expenditures.
Well what more I can say, this is my life now and maybe I can just use more of what I have which is my time. For one thing I am not in a rush to do things, I mean I am not in pressure and suffer consequences because I am more living in a laid out manner both literally and figuratively and trying to be more relaxed because I cannot do anything much anyway. Watching and listening to music is quite boring lately for the reason that I am doing the same activity each and everyday with only the exception when I am away from home because I pretty much prefer using my laptop than my own Smartphone especially now that its battery is not as good as the original one which I thought at first will not be an issue but in reality, there will be no more original battery that can outperform its original battery. I am also having trouble in using small gadgets such as Smartphones because of my vision. All those years that I am forced to be online in order to make my time worthwhile has taken a toll on my vision but I am made of flesh and bones and soon enough these components of my body simply will react to what they are exposed into may it be a positive change or otherwise. That is why losing the quality of my vision is enough for me to get depressed in a way that I know that I cannot recover it anymore.
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