This morning I just thought of having some plain bread although dipped it in margarine and some decaffeinated coffee for a breakfast. I didn't even asked my mother to give me some protein source like a piece of egg, I just wanted to take my calcium supplement with it and so that was the thing I had for a breakfast.
Then my mother told me that she will just buy some fried pork for my lunch which I wasn't excited with because the quality of that food that she buys is not really good, it is greasy and the skin is not that crispy. There is a burnt taste of it that makes it bitter.
Then she told me that she will cook some bitter gourd which by the sound of it is again not gonna be a thing that I will be looking forward to. I did had a bit of it but it was not delicious if I will be honest.
Now I just had those viands for some rice that I wasn't able to finish because I am given with some foods that doesn't taste good. Then I asked for some decaffeinated coffee so that it could help me to swallow my food which by then is just a mashed-up bitter thing inside my mouth while I waited, but the coffee too was made bitter! I don't know what my mother was thinking but I sipped it anyway so that I could finish-up my food.
I tried to eat as much as I can but I cannot do it anymore, the meal is just lousy. So I called-up my mother to give me a piece of Pear fruit so that it can wash-up the nasty taste in my mouth considering that I already had a bitter aftertaste caused by my Cinacalcet therapy which I also had taken with that meal.
Eating a piece of fruit makes me push back the bitter aftertaste caused by Cinacalcet in mouth. It does help a bit plus I needed some fiber in my diet and at least it also helps me too now that I am not eating Kimchi anymore because of its cost.
It is just frustrating not being able to have a varied food that I wanted and needed because of my parents which is why my life gets harder than it is now. Imagine having a crappy appetite and then you will just have some crappy food. I am just thankful that I can still eat despite of my situation so now I must again think of ways to solve this issue but again it will cost me.