I usually go for sleep whenever I want to get away from feeling bad and if I am depressed. I really am depressed because obviously who wouldn't with this kind of health issues that I am facing.
I am just happy that at least some of my lingering pains like in my back got improved and that I am not in misery compared to two or three years ago. I am just complaining about my appetite and the kind of food that I am getting served everyday, no variety whatsoever and because of the fact that my parents either can't cook nor just mixes food ingredients up and calls it a dish because for me it is what I see it.
Well it is just that maybe my appetite was to blame. But I cannot do something about it, I did took some appetite stimulant lately and what it does only was to make me feel sleepy all the time, not good.
As much as possible I wanted to be up all the time and be productive even though I am feeling lazy and doesn't want to learn new things. I only have limited passions in life that I want to do the former hobbies that I am doing because it seems that learning new things will just bring me stress.
Now that I am perpetually stressed-out all that I wanted really is to take my mind off from what makes me feel depressed and hence my writings with posts such as this and it is one of the things that calms me down.
That is why I do not engage in heated discussions that definitely will cause me mental harm. I will just reside in places that soothes me and accepts me as a human being and not like a trash and so that is what I am doing and stay on the course of what I want to happen in my life.
