Recalling those years which experienced a terrible speech impediment along with difficulty in consuming food and beverages too

There are so many wrong in my body like my musculoskeletal issue where I not only lost a tremendous amount of weight in the process following a very bad appetite, my backbone is still have a long-standing problem for the reason that my backpain is still there and present particularly when I am sitting upright for quite many minutes or one to three hours or more. It just means that the curvature of my spine is causing the pain and it will definitely cost me so much money if I would try to fix it with also having a greater risk of being a vegetable because of my already weak bones. I would always have to find ways to lie down because of my weak backbone, I am thankful that at least lying down improves the pain issue. That is why at dialysis clinic prior in getting my regular treatment, I am preferring to lie down as flat as possible rather than to sit up even at a 30 degree angle because the pressure of gravity would just squeeze my backbone and creates pain as well as discomfort on my breathing and my throat in the process.

When I would be sitting-up but reclined, my Adam's apple would sink to the breastbone and would cause some pain in my throat because my Adams Apple would rub against the breastbone area and causes me to uncomfortable not to mention the backpain as well and my affected breathing. That is why I told myself that I can never be comfortable in sitting down in any position except when I eat now which I would do as fast as I can and really take my time to do it. I would prefer to be sitting down rather than eating lying down on my back because it is now easier for me to do that.

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My backbone is still weak that I still prefer to be lying down all the time because I always feel like being squeezed whenever I would sit upright even at an angle

I would also in turn drink beverages while lying on my back-side during those painful and lingering backpain years even until now but less painful and more tolerable. It is just impossible to close my mouth while drinking which is why food and beverages would fall down from my mouth and it wasn't a good thing to happen, it made me feel mad about my situation. So I would drink from my personal Thermos but not in the case of coffee of course because I prefer my coffee to be sipped as hot as possible and it also comes in a heavy mug when I would ask my mother to fix me some if I want it. But one instance that I also had the experience of spilling myself with coffee right from the mug, thankfully the coffee is not boiling hot.

My experience way back from around those years when the extent of my facial deformity had gotten grossly big with the bone behind my lower jaw inside my mouth is already striking my palate and at the same time my chin also had gone big at the same time so much that I am already unrecognizable those times even also today. However , because of my medication (Cinacalcet) and following a recent use of Vitamin K2 MK-7 which improved my pain issues and recession of my facial bone enlargement which is enough for me to be understood when I would speak and also allowed me to eat while sitting up right again.

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Years ago upon telling my Endocrinologist that I can only eat and drink while lying down, she told me that I was eating like a King, if she only actually knew what was going on.