It couldn't get far worse than enduring a failed set of Kidneys by another additional burden to my body.
What made my condition back then was this Hepatitis B which is why I said that my bad kidneys couldn't get treated. The Nephrologist told us that it was in their protocol in not treating the Kidney because of my viral hepatitis because the treatment would affect my liver because I think that one of the medicines that I will use was steroid tablets, high enough to make me retain water and because of that it will complicate things again for my already half-functioning Kidneys . Upon hearing that very bad news right from the mouth of a well-known doctor, it made me feel so upset because I know that not only the treatment of Hepatitis B would prove to be almost impossible to do because it will cost me several hundred thousand pesos at that time and then will only give me with just 40 percent success rate of possibly of getting rid if the virus and my parents have no means necessary to get funds for treating my viral liver disease.
I did had a conversation with another doctor as I recall and I almost forgotten about it already because that moment happened in 1996-97 already during the time that I was seeking medical help from the outpatient department of NKTI hospital in Manila . He told me that I was just a carrier and will not present symptoms like yellowing of the skin and all that. I can't recall why he told me that but maybe because of my liver function test not presenting levels that it is producing high elevations of enzymes yet even after being a dialysis patient for more than a decade. My last liver function test was done many years ago but now I feel that it will not be the same. I can also request my current dialysis nurse to give me a request form for my next dialysis treatment to see if indeed my liver is already in the process of "Dying" in that regard. I might not submit it anyway because basically as the title says in my previous post, my liver too had gotten far more worse that it is now incurable at this point in time especially now that I got tested for being tested positive for a hospital-acquired Hepatitis C virus as addition.
I got tested again for another hepatitis profile and the test revealed that I had caught a Hep C virus. I could no longer react anymore because I had been through a lot of suffering after getting almost bed-bound because of my body pains and bone deformation caused by my Leontiasis Ossea which is another very big health issue that thank God I was able to at least control now from getting worse. Anyway, having a Hepatitis C is different, it is sure that I in the near future and that is actually "Now", I will develop a liver cancer. I known an actor who died from Hepatitis C which he said he got from abroad for getting a tattoo and then after a few years he died from it. Hepatitis C cure is just unreachable for almost all of the people that got it to afford a $1,000 dollars per tablet which should be taken from anywhere of four months to six months of therapy. However the success rate of a cure is very good of around 98 percent I think where I also think that I belong the the other 2 percent of not getting rid of Hep C because of my current health status where I do have a lot of comorbidities right from even before starting to be a dialysis patient nor the symptoms of having an impending Kidney failure in the future.
There are now telltale signs that I am developing a scar in my liver because of my current condition of having a very bad appetite. It has been an unusual symptom because it had been years since it began even after I discontinued the use of Cinacalcet which was the sole medicine for treating my other health issue called a secondary hyperparathyroidism caused by having high elevations of Phosphorus in my body for a long period of time. It created the aforementioned Leontiasis Ossea or "Lionface" as another term for my bone condition. Anyway, a sign that my body is fighting an infection which supposedly my liver as the main suspect was the test result having an abnormal differential count which just indicates that there is an infection in my body which my body is trying to fight. I do not have any other infections but I am sure that it was my liver in the process of failing in me of who knows what virus type and who knows when it began to start, I do not care much already because of my being powerless about doing something about it.
Sure that I lived longer than expected but it is now more of being existing than having an enjoyable life in terms of having a basic body function such as taste, smell, and vision which now had deteriorated to the extent that it is pointless to continue my life anymore. But I am still alive and I do not know when and also I will never attempt to give-up now for the reason that too much money and effort was done for me by my lovedones already that it is just selfish for me to end my life plus only God has the last say about when will be my last breath. What makes me feel to continue was my effort to give my parents a better life, it is just proving to be a very long effort to make it a reality because of these unexpected events that happened to me and the global economy. I am also making it sure to be secured if I will continue to live without the ones that truly cares for me are not around anymore, so it a difficult dilemma that I have to deal with, I am afraid to be alone in the most vulnerable years of my life. So for the time being, continuing my life will be my order of the day since not all things in my life is within my capacity to control and for those things I will just let go.
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