I wish I could stop the clocks of the world and live in reverse. All I've learned and All I've done would paint the past in a better coding.
I can finally make things right. Mould into my own footing.
Honestly, many won't admit it but I'd be the first in line to have another go around.
Reverse engineering time could make me a kid again, find a better purpose and laugh with my grandfather again.
If I could stop the clocks of the world I'd do it in a second to be happy again.
My pain is deeply hidden and sharp as razors. Words cannot convey what I've been thru.
Betrayal, Naivety and Tragedy.
The one's I love are nowhere near and some no longer of this earth. The one's who should've loved me retreated from their obligations long ago.
I can understand how I was perceived as a mistake. I'm viewing it as an experiment.
No parents. No siblings. No family.
Like an extraterrestrial, I'm alone on this planet who was probably sent here for experimental purposes. Perhaps my purpose is to shake things up or to at least document the darkness & light of reality.
I am lost but,determined. Like a car whose tires have melted, I choose to ride on the rims, because I like the drive.
My personal struggles have been my professional growths. As major projects I am apart of are yearning to go public, the ability to create brings me value and universal gleam.
Whomever brought me here is laughing hard.
For those who keep me wanting to remain here... I thank you.