The laws of God should not be challenged and denied, but humiliate yourself before God and ask for His grace and forgiveness.
You demand perfection besides Allah, whereas perfection is when you meet the Essence of Allah the Most Perfect, it is the greatest favor to you.
Get up and take care, worship God and bow down to God, and thank God for God's grace to you of His Essence and the opening of God's hijab and the unfolding of God.
Fakir is God's prison and reinforcements are God's bonds, then imprisoned and chained by His beloved.
All of this realm is the mirror of the place where God reveals the wahdatul-Afaal, wahdatul-Asma, wahdatul-Sifat and wahdatul-dzatNya.
God loves His patient servant patiently bears the test of God.