Cycle of life, It is brutal, it is real. We can plan all we want. But nothing stops the pain of loss from washing over us. It is how we deal with this pain that is important. Appreciate life, what you have learned from your mama, all the good times, all the lessons... and now the thing is not to despair, the hardest thing to do(the Irish have this down) is to rejoice in the beautiful life you were blessed to be a part of. Gratitude. The pain will subside. It is good that she will eventually be relieved of the suffering. I'm sorry for what you and your family have to go through. I had a friend with terminal cancer. When it got to the final couple of weeks his family hosted a going home party where people could visit and hug and kiss him before the inevitable happened (a week later). I pray for your strength at this time. god bless you and your family.