Body image

Being a teenage girl who isn't skinny, doesn't have a thigh gap or a very flat stomach I have always been a victim of the way I look. I have never had an issue with the way I look, yes I would like to lose a little bit of weight just to get rid of my stomach fat but I never want to be as skinny as some girls are. People think that having a little bit of extra fat on your body makes you unattractive but being able to see all the joints and bones in your body is attractive. The media has portrayed people who are a size 12 to be 'plus sized'. I never thought that I would be considered plus size. Many girls aspire to be models but a lot of models are just skin and bone in my opinion. I have always wondered what it would be like to be that skinny, to be able to fit into clothes without any bulges and being able to wear crop tops that show off your stomach.
Having completed my first term at uni I knew I had gained a few extra pounds. I wasn't sure exactly how much until I stepped on the scale. I had gained 14lbs, which to me is horrendous. I wasn't expecting it to be that much. Living by myself I had gotten into a routine of eating my dinner at 7pm, my physically doesn't allow me to eat any earlier as I am in uni until 6 most days. However, getting home and being told I am not allowed to eat at 7pm anymore because 'it's too late' and I've 'gained a lot of weight' was hard to hear. I was told that if I don't eat at 5pm with the rest of my family then I'm not allowed to eat dinner at all. This is highly unfair because changing my routine to fit my family over the next few weeks means I will then have to try and change my routine again for when I am back at uni. Since being back and being on 1 meal a day, I have lost 3lbs. I am quite happy about this as hopefully by the time I get back to uni I will be the weight I was when I started. Although I know I have gained weight I don't think it was right for my family to point it out and make me feel even worse than I already do about my weight. I have struggled with my weight ever since I was a kid and not being the skinny one always made me feel out of place. I don't think anyone should be made to feel like this no matter what size they are. Everyone has their own reasons for being the weight that they are and no one should disrespect that.