Trying to move.. Here I am still..!

I feel a bit stuck at the moment. In many aspects.

I am trying to finish or at least get some progress in my current watercolor drawing, to at least have that to blog about! But it's moving very slowly. I'll share some WIPs of it anyway..!

Basically it is also just too hot to do much here in Denmark at the moment. I can't really concentrate much when it's really warm..
So we go out to the water quite a bit lately, and that at least is really nice and beautiful, I have some pictures to share too from the last days!

But I also feel stuck in my life and situation. I wrote recently about my current situation with my partner and our uncertainty with each other and where to settle.

Corn fields surrounding my mother's house

We have been writing a bit back and fourth and gotten a little bit of clarity, but I feel we still have a long way to go. I want to travel down there to Italy to him at some point, but I just have to have reached a certain point of clarity I feel, to not fall back in the same and we have to have a clear idea of what we are gonna do after the summer.

My nearest idea is to go and spend some time in the Valley where his parents live and then maybe go down to Toscany and try to stay for a while in Elfie Valley, which is a Valley with many communities and "nature elves" living alternative ways. I have never been there, but I have a good feeling about the place, and I was thinking it could be a good mix between not having settled down completely, but not really travelling either and to explore living in that kind of community. But I still don't know if it is something that Roberto wants to do, so that is still completely on the idea level.

Many other ideas could be possible, but everything seems very far away at the moment.
There is also the possibility that we decide not to be together anymore, but we would still have to figure out a way to live so we can both be with our son. It can be complicated when we are from different countries and non of us are really prepared to settle in the other's country if it is not for being there together.

So let's see! I really cannot tell anything for certain about my near future! I am kindof used to that, but I am also a bit tired of it I must admit..
I think I used to cherish the uncertainty a lot more and I still do in some aspects. I like to have many doors open and possibility for surprises and spontaneity, but I guess a child just calls for some stability in order to get everything running smoothly. There is not as much space for wild spontaneous adventures and not knowing where to sleep is suddenly not so exciting anymore!.

So I still silently prays for some clarity and certainty and a clear, but beautiful path to show. It doesn't have to be paved. I'd still love weeds and wildflowers to grow there. A path that is not a highway, but a small forest path used by others on the same route, that I may meet someone along the road.

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