Hi adsactly.
I would first give natural remedies a chance,
because chemical psychotropic drugs
can have horrible side effects.
Have you heard of the medicinal plant Mucuna pruriens?
This medicinal plant seems to help many people
suffering from depression.
Have a look and inform yourself here:
https://nootriment.com/mucuna-pruriens-for-depression/

Do you know the herbal remedy product
"Feel Good" from thaivita.com?
This remedy contains the natural antidepressant
& natural mood booster Mucuna pruriens.
Take a look at:
https://www.thaivita.com/index.php?route=product/product&path=60&product_id=52
The information on this homepage is written in German,
but you can easily translate it into English here: https://www.deepl.com/translator

I wish you all the best and a quick recovery.
@guido7