Decent Last Couple Days Of Socialization. Collecting The Thoughts.

Went to a rad show the other night! Stayed in the big city overnight. My brother is down and around. Also there is a friend feeling a bit troubled that actually sent me an invite so I got him a ticket to this show. We saw Cold Cave live and it was epic!!! Really love their tunes, danced allot. Hadn't heard them much before so was a real treat hearing them live. It was the first show they headlined in the city Calgary, loved the time! I even bought their People Are Poison mug!

The show helped allot. My brain, emotions, psychological mode has been going. Good ways towards I must steer. Been having more dreams lately. More strange buildings and architecture. In the last ones there were flash bomb things I was running down hills and landscapes from. They were similar to those videos of blue flashes, jumping sundog? more like the videos of transformers exploding. In the dream they weren't blue, more reddish yet flashed and popped the same. My bro is into dream stuff so he helps me.

Having some brutal revelation re-realization of the false economic system and the militarized culture that backs corporations. It's like being stone cold sober and freaked out knowing when First Nations defend their water, land, culture against the oil and resource extraction industry they are met with military force just by occupying their own territory legally. The gov't, police and corporations keep breaking their own laws, as well as international law. You see the culture and laws of these countries and corporations as a complete farce and lie. Until the original peoples of this land are no longer oppressed you can have no faith in the so called system. These mining and oil companies have no pride, they are ruthless, gutless and brutal. You begin to understand how cultural appropriation is a huge insult after knowing the history, aware the culture of colonial oppression hasn't changed, ecocide, genocide, cultural genocide is still 'permitted' today. The paid think tanks still spout rhetoric about these pipelines going ahead with certainty. Papers and politicians sell the idea via media. Just brutal, are people actually okay with military force to put through a pipeline, seems surreal to me, most people are uneducated, don't believe everything you read, don't be brainwashed, don't hate what you don't understand 'cause that's being fake and a crime against humanity. But ya you can talk to some who say all people should assimilate, even on radio talking about new immigrants. Gross, there's no respect for anyones unique cultural heritage.

Found an interesting video talking about war, laws, militias of mercenaries. Guy says situations is getting worse, there is more war and it's becoming a feedback loop of destruction. Makes me think on that stat that 3 percent of what U.S. spends on military would solve world hunger! Yes, this is the disgusting backward current situation of the world we live in. We must fight and adapt to new ways. There are other ways!!

I could say more but should go to bed soon. Glad I can reflect here a little bit. I want to get through the brutal bits and keep improving and expanding my character. Get into life, feel some genuine passion. I want to put that energy in sounds/songs too. Will be real social this week with my bro down so can open my self to inspire to write, give me a little break from the routine. More good tweaks, learning, know the social spot in the right ways, to not get spooked or too sad. Ok I'm ready to fun it up for the next days.