Feel I Can Handle The World, Though It May Seem Inexplicably Out There.

Continuing to trip a little bit tonight. I sensed a rather dark vibe lately. I feel like I don't want to lay low, I want to more take it easy! As in not wanting to get caught up in the hype yet still be present. Just saying that makes me feel so much better! Lately I've been reading newspaper articles on mental illness struggles of youth. It is no measure of health to be well adapted to a profoundly sick society. There is no great care system. Self harm issues, drugs being pushed on children, teens, 20 somethings and beyond. In paper articles it manifests; becomes apparent in the school system. There is no mental health standard nor a proper place for youth if they have to leave their home from domestic abuse. In one way or other it all stems from poverty discrimination. Schools, counsellors, drugs don't help period. It's cause we live in a weird punish based society it seems.

As a creature not a creedture! The world does seem fairly off put. I mean that as in current state of society as lived in and experienced. Yet the real normalness prevails not the fake hyped taken as normal. The creaturely normal v.s. the creed-surely normal!

If taken with all where nothing is taken for granted what could a person act like. Maybe implant a hard life into anyone who has had a so called easy life and call it even!? Could only know through actual contact. Through meeting another person in true dialogue. That would be not just telling each other your own opinion then calling it a conversation. Not just be in someones shoes, know their skin. That's not getting weird, sexual or necro. An intimate conversation without any chance of missed-understanding.

Seems I'm coming to some place. Gotta be careful on any change or switch. Reality is all about subtlety. If you go one way you can do well, on the edge of that is disaster. It's a balancing act of being aware at all times. If you are not aware of something don't do it! Not if your not confident. I even feel the edge of so called sanity/insanity is thin. We live in a very paranoid society. You could be deemed 'crazy' for any stupid reason, you could be locked up, drugged. So it's not just crime people should be afraid of committing. It's even just seeming crazy, never mind actually being crazy. I advocate people going mad by the way! Unfortunately we don't have a safe learning environment to do that yet!

These are just some mind hog boggle thoughts of the night. Haha, I seem to not go through very much yet I go through allot in a short amount of time! I feel this weird time differential from deja vu and cabin fever! Still I will survive. Just gotta stay calm to get through winter, I'll be alright.