Still On Good Trip!! Out Of The Glitch Scenario.

Get out of the social trappings, the self-doubt hype. Thinking about this lonely world sometimes, you may not feel alone cause your are wrong, bad or not good enough. It's the haze maze to give up face to join the rat race. No way!! To deal with the dreary drone isolation zone with exuberance, sensitivity, over all liveliness. Man the world seems dumbed down, depressed, hyped, run away behaviour. Sometimes you notice when you get vital and intense some people would try to tell you to calm down, or downplay/poo poo what you are saying. I know instead of getting mad at the person I get livid at at a society that allows and encourages people to be like that. You gotta fight it back for self respect and for respect for the world at large. You can't just give up, although the world seems set up to discourage you from caring.

The current world situation seems exacerbating no doubt, that's just it though, that's the glitch that would make one feel like they have no power for social change. Yet that ain't the whole story. Even if given a viable alternative some would act like they would still not want to move or change their mind. So yea I can let people know about what's uncomfortable 'cause anti-social behaviour from potential allies makes me uncomfortable. I'm more going for the social movement, change.

When you see that sitting on the sidelines mocking everyone who is different or wants political action is one of the worst things you can do...cause it adds to the problems. You know you can't tolerate people talking like that. So you at least talk to them. Let them be frustrated, let them not be able to answer your question, let them cough up some trope that makes them feel comfortable in their position. At least they got to hear themselves tell their view against your question. So even if they want to act like they ignore it, they will think about it when they go to bed at night. You don't have to get mad, just give them something to think about. Give them something to cry about even. Can even be mean beyond measure! but never cruel!

I've felt the pinch of social isolation my whole life. Yet am lucky to have at least some fam here with me. I always yearn for the wider community. A place where people don't treat you like the person they think you are but actually get to know you better through time. In that thought I can work on it. Not build up stuff about people in my head and blow up on them, instead freak out at these scenarios the culture has set up for people. Giving up might be a start, it may be the best first option, yet to me it could never be a final option, or an option 'cause it doesn't produce real change. I like having anxiety from 9-5 work routines, seeing a culture of consumer entertainment, a domineering money system, the paranoid society. I'm glad to be freaked right out! I want to express it in a real way that doesn't put down anybody. Wow people are satisfied with this, call it a life and are ok with bringing kids into this!? I don't think they really thought about it. Then the kids will have their first dose of psychic mutilation from the school, where the parent is treated like a nobody. Just wait, or what!?

I've felt trapped like I don't know where to go, I don't know what to do, I don't know who to talk to, I don't know what to think. But I think I do know. The culture chokes you, says this is it, now enjoy this!! No! Being anti-social isn't rebelling or implementing change either. You are not going against the system from self abuse, you are feeding it. Now that's not to feel guilty for trying to feel something with a drug or self harm but hey you gotta know it's not our fault. So we can't blame ourselves. Bite back at the culture. That is what it is there for! Take it out on the culture!!! Not yourself.

It's getting out of this damn glitch culture has set up for us. All around the world more walls going up, more people displaced, more subjugated to the military mentality of governments and the false economic system set up by corporations. More kids getting mentally ill, more addictions etc. Enough is enough and too much is too much. That's why it's okay to get political in my head at least. Put it out into a story, express it in a song. Even if their is no 'friend' to hear you at the time. Still keep the social doors open, don't hide yourself just 'cause everyone else is acting like an asshole right now. Don't let it ruin your positive/beingreal/opening up about what's uncomfortable party!

So yes, more thoughts shared to stay sane. Sometimes the thoughts can seem grindy and awful in your mind. Once it's out in words it seems more tangible. Talk it out. We don't just make stuff up in our head for no reason. I like to be able to change my mind and know I don't have to look at things only one way, there are different ways. To open up to a different view can make you feel open, vulnerable, uncomfortable. I find perspectives are to be known not believed so.... how scary is that kiddies!?