thats wrong and sounding very bitter. not bec you are sad does not mean other people are not genuinely happy. if you open your eyes to the fact that you are always sad and you know deep down that is true, why cant it be possible for other people to be always really happy?

you should be in the middle. happy sad. not happy not sad at all times.

the thing about you is that when you are hurt you push people away more than you resolve and make amends. you end up hurting yourself.

creepy maybe, but positive energy? that is truth.