Lovestruck

Well, I've had a most thrilling morning. I woke up to the refreshing announcement that my first rock n roll sweetheart, the one and only Bon Jovi would be coming back to Romania for a gig this coming summer and I couldn't be happier. Although I've grown a lot and I'm not really that much of a Bon Jovi gal anymore, I still remember the little 10 year old me dancing in the kitchen to Livin on a Prayer.
And she was so excited and so happy and that love for that one song gave way to such an intense love affair with rock music (classic, heavy, what have you) and so of course, I was first in the digital line and secured my tickets.

And I'm so happy and jumpy, he's such a feel-good guy, you know? I can't wait for July to roll around.

Naturally, when I heard about it, I went and told my best friend. Because see, for a good bit of our lives, he meant so much to us. I could say we grew up on him, although it seems a weird thing to say – you know, 'cause our parents grew up on him too. But we did and I remember when we were like 12 or something, we listened to his songs a lot and sang along and knew the lyrics and it was so very happy and beautiful <3
It's a lovely memory, really. It's incredible to think how exciting a song can be to a 12 year old – but do you imagine? Hearing all about heartbreak and rebellious young love...it really was something to dream of. Well, so was Bon Jovi, really, so...I guess that helped.

And now we have tickets and we're going and it's settled. And I got to thinking about relationships because we're talking about something that's many months away, you know? 9 months, that's a long time, a lot can happen in nine months and yet we were like 'yep, we're going.'
No doubt about it. And I realized how good it is, because you don't have a lot of people with whom you can be like that, do you? At least I don't. Because even with a boyfriend or something, you think, blimey that's quite a long time, maybe we shouldn't make plans that far ahead...because who knows if we'll still be together by then?
I know, many of you are married and it seems natural to make plans so far ahead with someone and all that, but still, you can never be sure and things break so easily. Who knows, maybe you're very happy in your relationship and very secure and then good for you. I can only talk about myself and I just know that I'd have to have a serious think before committing to go somewhere with someone in almost a year. I mean, what if we fight, have a falling out, can't even bear to see each other? Then you're still left with this messy business of the life you once thought you'd have together. It seems unpleasant, at best.

But with this friend of mine, it was so sure, you know? So easy, like of course we'll go in 9 months. 9 months is peanuts and it feels so good and so reassuring to have someone like that, to know you'll probably still be together in 9 months. It made me feel happy, in a weird way. We all need to have someone, naturally, and again, I'm not saying you can't be like this with a partner, just that it'd probably make me think about the future of that relationship. Whereas, this didn't.
It was like a given and it's so nice to have a given sometimes.

I've spoken before of the value of friendships and how mindboggingly amazing it is to have someone close and dependable and who gets you. I actually wrote a post on it, once, long ago. And today reminded me of it. You know, I'm young and I'm supposed to be quite clueless. And often, very often actually, I am. But sometimes, I realize what's happening around me. As a kid, I don't think you fully get it, you just go with whoever fits best in class, 'cause you've gotta go with someone and that's it.
And it's fun and it's glorious and it's great.
But lately, I've been having this feeling, this realization that I'm cultivating this relationship that's very important to me and that I hope will be very important for a really long time, you know. With my best friend.

I've just been really aware of it, this sense of building something awesome, you know? And it's so, so very great.

Again, this isn't a post against romantic relationships or whatever, I was just noticing that you know, I'd be less sure of a guy than I'd be of her and I suppose that's normal and I'm just really glad to have someone like that. It's a luck and maybe it's a luck we take less time to appreciate than our current partners.

Anyway, thank you for reading,