My Life! Part #10. The end of the sweet life.

And after that I lost everything and gained huge numbers of debts and enemies. My life got complicated. I never knew the way out.
Vika is completely ceased to notice me, and I support it in principle did not see any. Mother daily nagging my brain, talked about that "But if".
But that's only if I knew where to fall podstelil would. I tried to find some kind of work to at least try to give something back. I began to look for a, I had to hide, to sit for days at home.
The situation is completely out of control, I was ready for extremes.
It was nearing the new year and Vick girlfriend proposed to meet the New year in a restaurant with friends. She stood on the head and I'll stay at home with their daughter, but for some reason on the last day she offered me to go with her but I of course prefer to spend New year with her daughter.
Though she is not my biological, but I loved her very much and until then, honestly, really miss it, though it's been 2 years.
New year's eve I was in for a surprise, I called his mother and said that to the house where I am registered, came a huge van which left the entire guard. They rang the doorbell and wanted to see me. But I was fortunately not been found, thank God, are not to be with me :).
After the new year, even those who knew my number and that was the last people whom I could trust, called me and told me everything is looking for and recommended that I do to escape from the city.
But I couldn't, I'm not the only one.
After new year's eve that Victoria had been with me, and in the circle of friends, she has changed a lot. Sometimes it seemed to me that I was terribly annoyed but she doesn't know how to say it.
She began to disappear, her home did not happen for days, and I like a fool was sitting by the window all day, Smoking and waiting for her. And that one time after she came from a friend. She was sleeping already, I couldn't sleep and sat and looked at the ceiling. Here designall her cell phone received an SMS with the text "I would love to repeat the evening."
Until then, remember word for word this message. I couldn't help it, woke her up, of course nothing I really from it is not achieved overnight. She said that tomorrow will come home from work in the evening and talk to her. I wanted to believe every word of it and not let her go anywhere, to forgive all was ready, even treason if it was.
The whole day I was bitten fingernails waiting for her...

Well, here she finally comes home. We sat down with her in the kitchen drinking tea, she pretends like any conversation we have with her and should not be. I broke down and started first, that in response she told me; - Dima, I don't love you and never have been. Don't make me be with you, you need to go.
After these words I heard heart sank somewhere below his feet. It seemed that I was on the edge of the cliff. I the next day I Packed my things and left.
Sit at home and think: All I was looking for, the girl madly in love, got dumped. Why live?
Went to the store, bought vodka. Came home, got drunk for courage, and got drunk tablets. Lay down to sleep....