What to do at a cross roads in life.

For many years now,I have known that i have not been living the life I desire,this is not a post of regret,perhaps more of a journey.After a tough time in school and two hard years of pretty much unemployment,I set off the New jersey to work as a camp councilor in a religious camp.I was personally not religious and my time working at the camp was bumpy,and times horrible but life changing for he positive none the less.

As it stands at the moment I have been working as a lifeguard and swimming teacher for almost 10 years now despite leaving my post last year I stayed as a casual staff member,but due to a host of other people leaving i find myself often working more than i used to on a reduced rate of pay.

In early November my lifeguard qualification ends,and I shall not be renewing it as I simply don`t enjoy it anymore,I have a mortgage that i will likely keep which will obviously mean I will have to keep some cash coming in,but one thing I have realized over these last few years,and perhaps why I have stayed in my current job so long is because my dream job is a job I have made myself.

Perhaps Iv been too scared up till now ,the thought is scary but one thing I keep saying to myself is if this is what i have to do to gain happiness then anything i may have to risk will be worth it.What the future hold well I plan to still teach swimming every so often as I enjoy that part,i am an artist part time and enjoy photography and I have also learnt how to invest in the hope of profits,plus various internet opportunities to make small money but money none the lees.I look forward to living a more basic life style one things for sure luxuries and indulgences will have to go,my already dated phone might be staying with me that bit longer.

All in all i know I have no full proof plan but if you are not happy in life one must peruse it,regardless Im looking forward to the process.