Hello to all,
I am an entrepreneurial father of 3 and a husband to a beautiful wife. I provide voip telephone services and IT services as a company and have since 2005. I was raised in a dis-functional home with a great childhood. My childhood living in Bermuda was paradise and when I was young it was just pure bliss. My first car was a chevrolet celebrity, second a jeep cherokee and third was a GTO. One that I happened to launch @155mph about 12-18ft in the air landing it like a dukes of hazzard scene. I have witnesses ;) One passenger at least. Luckily, because without it the weight may have been off too much because when you launch a car without a three point harness you get slammed into the roof. (most likely the major source of some of my back/hip pains) Before I tell the next part let me be clear as possible, I was raised in a tough world and my life was no tougher than the next just different.
Fast forward to my life as of 12yo and theres a different painting colored with a vibrant stain of alcoholism, suicide (father) attempted and then in graphic details verbalized throughout my teen years. It was tough and on the soul of a young boy to say the least. I've fist fought a gun from his hands, watched him slice his wrist right through and worst of all lost my hero who served 20 years in the military. I had a strong desire to follow in his footsteps and become a NAVY seal as I was raised on base, went to dod schools and am patriotic by all the definition. My heart goes out to anyone dealing with alcoholism in their families or lives. I have seen the darkest of times as a man as I know what it feels like to bury your own son after a miscarriage. I dug a grave for my own at 32 years of age he had been in gestation just 4.5 months and after the miscarriage I held him as he stopped moving. That was the most traumatic moment of my life as I went into a bit of panic/shock as I yelled for my relatives at my home at the time and friends to get him to a hospital alone in the thought of a possible miracle of saving him. The ability to talk about this allows me to feel not so alone anymore. I am with this able to hear stories of similar lives and the tribulations others face themselves and it seems no life is more difficult than the next just different. Maybe I just tell myself that to seem not so odd but thank you for listening.