The misery of feeling stuck

You could call me a dreamer at heart. Like many dreamers, we all posses very wonderful attributes. We have a tendency to be exponentially positive in any situation, set high goals and inspire everyone around us, and have a very creative heart at our core. But such is life, with every positive comes a challenging negative! The biggest hurdle i run into everyday is, "Where to start."

    I grew up in a small town in Danville in the East Bay. Population has BOOMED since i have been here, everything in less than ten years has changed so much that i can barely recognize the place i call home. It is so congested all the time that thinking becomes a laborious task.  Even trying to make a decision can be the most difficult chore. Sometimes i wonder how nice it could of been to grow up on a farm in the middle of nowhere, away from so many distractions, To really take the time to figure out who you are as a person.

    The last year has been by far the most interesting  to date, You could call it a huge growth period for me and probably many young adults at my age. The path to self discovery can be a beautiful and destructive force, but, in order to truly understands one's self, you have to do... things! Some are good decisions, some not so good, never should you ever feel bad about them nor dwell on them, always move forward.Keep in mind, the events that took place in your life, lead you to the person you are today. To be angry, resentful, or mad at your past would only lead you to be upset at while living in the present. 

    So here we are in the present, I am a month away from my twenty ninth birthday. Many changes have taken place in me to reach this point. Wanting a house, my own family, a partner to share this world with, i could never imagine in my younger years that i would of ever reached this point! I ask myself, what was it? how did this happen, why do i feel this now? As much as i retrace my steps and look into myself, the occurrence of loneliness always seems to be there. At first it is scary to see this! I imagined my whole life i could do everything on my own and that i don't need anyone or any help! It goes without saying, "No man is an island."

   This is where it gets interesting and i am curious as to what the community thinks about this. Could the over population, distractions, availability of too many choices be more detrimental to the new generations? What is the right of passage for our children these days? Everything is supposed to be fair, politically correct, sheltered, easy. How are you supposed to discover who you are if you do not suffer or experience complete isolation.I am lucky to have made it this far in life and there is so much more to come, but i ask you all, "Where do we start from here?"

Please feel free to share your experiences or comment below, i would love to hear everyone's opinion.