Finding Balance

I do not know how to dip my feet in, when I commit to something, I end up entirely soaked.
I want to know everything about it.
In an effort to minimize failure in any aspect of my life, I must recenter, must find balance!
I also do much better in all aspects of my life when I have some sort of "schedule".
I hope I'm not giving off the wrong idea, I like to be spontaneous, and am in general quite "random".
However, as I age, I realize more and more, how important structure is.

We live in a rushed society.
If your life is anything like mine, you have a ton of obligations and still try to manage to carve out some time for enjoyment. My plate is constantly full, I am the mother to 4 boys, a big family equals big messes, lots of running around and sometimes lots of chaos. My kids are good kids, but there is only one mama here.
I have a huge calendar on my wall with work times, sports practices, appointments and bill due dates. It generally helps me keep pretty well organized.

I find that if I spit everything out onto paper, my brain feels less scrambled, and therefore I am less overwhelmed.

However, what about things that are steemit/discord related?!?!

It has become such a huge part of my life.
My significant other pointed out today that I am devoting maybe a bit too much time to it.

Must find balance.

In effort to minimize being a spaz, I decided that I need a place to store ideas, obligations, links and other useful information that is directly related to my blog and my moderator duties.
Until I get a computer that is only for me set up, my phone is just not working to hold the wealth of information I am amassing.

So I found this gem yesterday:

I also bought these.....because fun!!

I am hoping that if I am able to purge everything out of my brain, I can spend less time "overthinking" things. Which will lead to less "time wasting" and therefore more being productive.
Since it is for my eyes only, I may even create content for my blog in it.

I understand that I am "too much" sometimes, thank you guys (you know who you are) for your patience, kindness and guidance, I appreciate you.

I fully intend on being on steemit.com and a part of the whaleshares community for the long haul.
Hopefully this "journal" helps me to be the best me I can be.

Forever a work in progress-

Much love-