The good thing about extreme emotions are that they shoot out new desires. Being alone on Christmas day and no family valuing me enough to make the effort to visit me was certainly an eye opener. Especially when you are full of love and it never seems to reciprocated.
So whilst I had purposefully made the heart breaking decision to change my mobile number. To put myself first and disconnect with family and friends who were always emotionally taking and never replenishing. Yes I felt lonely and hurt being alone on Christmas day but those same people did not come to find me before, on or after Christmas day. It confirmed I had made the right decision.
So I have made 2 decisions. The first is to renovate my bathroom in my flat and the second is to rent it out and live in a house. It has always been my dream to live in a house and to have my own garden. I dont know how I will financially do it, but I will.
2018 is about healthy relationships and making dreams happen.