Since I quit doing drugs in 2011 I am fighting depression aswell. Especially in the wintertime. Some winters it was so hard that I rarely went out of bed at all so i lost nearly all of my muscles - like muscles that hold you straight, not like a sixpack or something - which i had to build up over the rest of the year again. I dont take meds tho. What I have figured out over the years, what makes it better a lot is: 1. If you have a really bad day: accept it. Don't try to get yourself feeling better, it won't really do anything. But accepting that you have a really bad day, makes it a little easier. Say to yourself: Okay, I feel like shit to day. But it's fine. Secondly: Make yourself clear that depression can't be handled with willpower. Getting angry is often a good first step, but can't change things long term. Thirdly: You are missing the following thing: Vitamin D, Serotonin and most likely Oxytocin. You have anyone that you can hug a few minutes a day? That gives you oxytocin. Then, there are daylight lamps that can help get your vitamin d levels up. Thridly, cold showers help alot with those neurotransmitters. If you can get yourself to shower cold regulary, it will help a lot. Last point is diet. Try to eat healthy as far as possible. And don't be too hard with yourself if you can't apply all the tips you get, it takes time. Good Luck!