A little bit of me

It has been more than 10 years at least since i wrote my journal, for reasons i wont express now .
With a few pounds more, a bit of wrinkes in my face and some gray hair growing , here i am , writing my journal once more.
So many things have occured that it seems i am writing a novel but the truth is that in 10 years so many many things have happened.
Today is saturday and its raining , as the matter fact it has been raining all day long , i love to hear the noise of the falling rain while i´m sleeping warm in my bed.
Nonetheless this kind of weather makes me feel so blue particularly now that my father lost his battle against leukemia,
I have lost my dad recently, and this is keeping me down.
Fortunately i hold myself in to building my own family and at the same time i keep my responsabilities as the youngest child of my parents , i was taking care of my father after loosing my beloved mother ,
Those years were really hard for my dad and me , we sacrificed a lot , we had to grow and learn how to live without mom, but we succeded.
I only hope my dad realized how much i loved him and respected him and i don´t regreat that i had accompanied him in his last process, until his last breath .
Now after being a care taker full time, i feel a bit empty and lonely , althought i started to work again as a teacher but it´s not my passion anymore .
I have been so blessed with my husband and daugther, they are an incredible suppor for me and i have this huge need to rebuild my life again, i need to focus on my new goals and dedicate time to my daugther and husband and me .
I am afraid to do so, but i think it´s time to fly to new horizons , i believe for every positive change we make in our life , something else change for the better , so i will be posting how this new life will come .
If you feel like me, if you feel you need to change something in your life , and just thinking about it makes you feel happy , i say let´s go for it, lest drop the fear that it´s holding us to the past.
I had given up so many things in life for others, and now i want to experience what is to do somethig you are passionate about it.
let´s walk together in this new adventure and share how we feel about it.