Hi Jeff, I am Christian and I watched your whole video. I upvoted it not because I believe all you said but because you did say some things that rang true. I am truly impressed that you want to learn more and you are still open minded about things (That's a great sign!) but I do hope you read the Bible and at least pray to God to reveal things to you. I hear lots of the same comments you made from many people and wish I had all the answers but I do not. As far as I am concerned the Bible is the true inspired word of God and that's where I stand on that. Many people want to argue my belief and I choose to state what I believe is true and defend my faith but never argue with anyone about it. We all have a choice to make on our own and I notice a lot of Christians argue and push the Christian belief on others to try and save them. First off no man can save another. Only Jesus can save. Secondly we are not supposed to argue with anyone but simply preach the gospel of Jesus Christ and allow the Holy Spirit to work in that person. Some plant a seed and some water but only God can bring increase. Keep searching and stay open minded. Don't give up on Jesus and just try talking to God and asking for wisdom in this matter. I pray for you brother and wish you all the best in the future!