@Kaylinart thank you for sharing your experience, it must feel odd putting yourself out there after being with one person for so long. I applaud you for getting out of your head and looking for the healing you need to move forward wiser and stronger. Just by reading your post, I could tell this date was going to be a little off when you said your gut was telling you to stay home...
Good luck on future dates, trust your gut and love yourself the most!!
Cheers! Xoxo