I Need To Be Accepted For Who I Am

I have had this dream for so long of living mobile and going where I want, when I want, with nothing tying me down. I have always wanted to buy a camper and a great vehicle to tow it with and hit the road to travel all over North and South America.

If I can drive there, then I want to go there. I would have to work out insurance and places to park the camper but those are details that I would have to work out. I haven’t gotten that far into planning anything yet.

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Why Haven’t I Done It Yet?

I think I have always been terrified of this dream because it is unconventional and I wasn’t sure what my family would think.

The opinion of my family has always meant a lot to me and my parents were so focused on all of their children being successful in life. We were brought up in such a way that we have always had goals we were working towards and checked all the boxes that we are supposed to check as fully functioning adults and productive members of society.

So, I did what I thought everyone expected of me. I got married, bought a house, pursued a respectable career, and added money to a retirement account. Everything that a respectable, mature woman is supposed to do with her life, right?

But I’m Not Happy!

Unfortunately for me, that life has made me absolutely miserable and my family has encouraged me to pursue what I actually want to pursue for myself without holding myself back anymore.

We have had many conversations about life and what success would mean to me. I have realized recently that success means something different to everyone and if you are working towards your goals and/or achieving them then you should be considered successful.

I honestly wish that I realized years ago that living my life according to what others might think of me was not the way for me to live. As it turns out, my parents just want me to be happy but I think they were scared for me because I have always thought differently than the rest of my siblings.

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Ever since I was a kid, I have thought differently from other people. I have started businesses instead of getting a traditional job.

I had joined the military instead of going straight into college like my friends did.

I got married at an incredibly young age against the advice of my close family and friends.

I have traveled to third world countries completely alone and while not knowing anyone there and rolled up my sleeves to help locals with challenges they were facing.

I have given the shirt off my back to people that took advantage of my kindness and I ended up in financial positions that I wouldn’t have been in if I minded my own business.

But, the thing is that I need to be loved and accepted for who I am without people wanting to change me. I am different, I am weird, and that is ok with me. I really don’t care what people think about me anymore.

I care about what my family and close friends think of me but I have their support in whatever I choose to do with my life from here on out. That right there means the world to me and I will be living my life differently from here on out!

Thanks so much for reading! I would love to hear your thoughts on living life according to your hearts desire instead of according to what other people want you to be.

Ivy