You search for what's familiar even when whatever that may be is uncomfortable or painful simply because you are used to it and us humans are creatures of habit. We are known to say we are sick of something and no longer want it but keep doing the same thing that allows whatever it is to keep happening.
There are a few reasons for this, sometimes it is the trigger within our reward system, that moment of instant gratification.. even if it is followed by pain and suffering, we will always find a way to justify it, or talk our selves out of how bad it is when we are only focused on that first hit.
If you want something different, you have to look beyond the moment. It is so easy to find ways to talk yourself around the situation, to pretend it's better than it is, or that maybe you were the one overreacting and that it isn't so bad. But, when each time the end result is the same, you're technically being insane.
You have to be willing to be a little (or a lot) uncomfortable for a little while in order to move to another stage in your life. One without all of the hurt and heartbreak and struggling and suffering.
You have to start looking for the possibilities of what you know you desire over what you once only thought was possible.
Let go of what feels familiar and start moving towards what actually feels better. ❤