Travelling has always been a hobby of mine. My goal when I enrolled in the university's actuarial program was to spend a year as a student exchanger in Spain. Regretfully, the classes came at us quickly, along with long study sessions and tests.
After graduating from college, I was hired by the company where I had an internship. The fantasy! However, I had to abandon my plans to move overseas.
I was satisfied with our annual trips to the South that my boyfriend and I took. Honestly, I was always hoping for more. Not like my partner, I never looked forward to going home. I would have lingered for several weeks or months! He was comfortable in a routine that I had also fallen into, but that, in the end, did not work for me. To be honest, I had no idea who I was.
I lost all of my hair before I started college due to a medical condition. For a span of seven years, I made every effort to blend in and conceal my wig, which helps to explain many of my actions, including the somewhat impulsive one I made regarding my employment.
I believed that I had found fulfilment. I really enjoyed joining several committees at work and taking part in all the events. I was blissfully happy in love. Everything about our recently purchased duplex appeared perfect. The epidemic then struck. Taken away from my social life, I found out very quickly that I didn't enjoy my job. I enrolled in training in order to look into alternative options and secure a job at a small business. "A catalyst was the epidemic. Life's speed changed all of a sudden, according to psychotherapist Geneviève Beaulieu-Pelletier. "It was an opportunity for many to make changes to their lives."
Nonetheless, the discontent persisted. All of my responsibilities seemed like a prison. Next followed the proposal of marriage, which I accepted in spite of a small voice in my head telling me no. I was so engrossed in getting ready for our engagement that I didn't have time to reflect. I followed the current.
"In society, having a spouse and a house are signs of success. The psychologist observes that there is a great deal of societal pressure to fit into this mould. "And it is often easier to ignore our inner voice than to realise that our life is far from the one we really want."
My fiancée invited me to travel to Mexico for a month after she resigned from her position as an actuary. Following my engagement celebration, we were scheduled to depart. I answered "yes" right away! In a quaint little village, we had made hotel reservations. Our plan was to practise yoga on the beach.