Depression, and losing your footing.

Hi guys, I'm Arthur. I'm 27 years old. I'm danish, after 4 years in London I recently Moved back to Denmark. I lived there with my ex girlfriend who meant the world to me. Ever since we broke up a lot has happened, I am gonna start to study again. I got a job, that I really dislike, hence i'm trying this out, and I have come to terms with the root cause of my depression. My ex girlfriend cheated on me after 3 months of our relationship, but I was young and naive and I cared for her and it was an honest mistake, which we all do. I never really got over it, and she got into a depression, and one day before we moved to London, we were just chilling at home, I went into the living room and I saw her trying to hang herself. It was the worst thing I have ever seen. I helped her down, and it was completely random that I even went in there, I just had to grab some stuff. I dropped out of university after that, isolated myself and my friends noticed, but thought it was just the common ''Get a girlfriend and forget friends syndrome''. But it wasn't. I started doubting everything, started hating myself, and walked around with insane feelings of guilt, because I drove her to do it by not being able to just fully let go of her mistake. I have no idea why i'm sharing it here, I only recently a few months ago got into cryptocurrency, and only few months ago devoloped an interest for coding as well. Starting out with java, despite what people say negatively about it. I am not a good writer, and horrible at keeping a red line in my over-all writing. Anyway. Good luck with everything, and good luck to getting this Steemit community of the ground, sounds like a really promising project!