Beautiful and heartfelt <3 and completely infuriating! What a piece of trash. I'm so sorry he got under your skin. He's one of those. So insecure with himself that he has to continuously knock other people down to feel bigger or better. Because if you tell someone youre better than them, they tend to believe it (even if they act like they don't). He sounds just like my ex. He had a fuckin goddess but he knew he couldnt handle it. So he made you think you were average and he was god so you would spend forever wishing for his approval. Manipulative genius, but evil af nonetheless and I know personally how hard it is to let someone like that go. Because you will always wonder why you werent good enough... But the truth is he wasnt good enough for you and he never will be. It took falling in love with someone else for me to get over my ex and be able to see all the deceit and manipulation tactics he used on me, he called me fat once, i spent months checking a scale 6 times a day, wishing I was smaller even when my bones were showing.... Dont let him do that to you. he'll disapear from your mind eventually. And when he does pop back in your head, you'll laugh at how pathetic he really was.