This might seem cliche-ish, but I just feel I need to remind you that God loves you.
No, not that way, not the way you always have it pictured, not the empty sayings you have always heard.
You have either loved or have been loved by someone, think about it, think about how you or they felt, think about the joy of having the lover around, even not saying a word, just seeing their face. yeah
That tingly feelings, yeah, God's got all of it for you, He actually loves you
If you are privileged to have had a kid, think about those times your baby runs to you, either out of fear, or out of excitement, or appreciation, or just playing around, think about how you feel when her tiny lips brush against your cheek or yours against hers. that feeling, yeah, God feels it for you
He actually love you,
"I am bad, I am a sinner and more".....your baby offends, breaks your favorite items, you still love her or him, YES He loves you like that
If you can just bring yourself to accept \His love and if possible reciprocate it, oh! what a bliss you have subscribed to.
Think about it