Many times I still daren't believe that I have ever been so happy this life. I married a man whom I worship so much, whom I waited for so many years! A long long long long long dream really really once came true!
We sat in a bench together around Shenzhen train station(a Chinese mainland city closest to HK) , watching people from different countries in the street coming and going. We were both in raptures for our final meeting from online to reality--the encounter of Eastern and Western systems of civilization! We needn't language (although it is really a huge barrair between China and US), because our hearts beat on the same string cheerfully.
My heart was singing and had been drunk...It seemed that the whole world was ours, and two of us were just the whole world.
Who knows only a few months later, my man--that learned and gentle American scholar who treated anyone friendly and equally, always willing to help others became an icy corpse suddenly?
That kind of huge pain made me want to give up my own life.
God, if possible, please take my own life to exchange my man's life!
If this life, you once really love someone, you must understand my feeling.
The lover's happiness is just your happiness! All your dream is to let him be happy.
Pitifully my lover can't return any more! His life on earth has come to an end!
How can I describe my love and worship to my man? I only know it is as deep as sea, it is as sweet as honey, it is as strong as war...
I desire to have a war for my dearest American husband's death in China. Who caused such a huge tragedy?---Centralization ruined our great international love across nation, race, class,etc.
I know digitalcurrency revolution based on the decentralization technology/blockchain will change the whole world...redefine the government, make the fiat money obsolete... Pray the omnipotent God...Let the whole world memorize my respected American teacher/husband.